The secret Lennon tape: Beatle reveals his sex fantasies. He blasts Jagger, Macca and Dylan
EXCLUSIVE by Adrian Addison
A SENSATIONAL tape of John Lennon confessing his deepest sexual urges has been found gathering dust in a garage.
In the precious 13-minute audio recording, the former Beatle admits he once wanted to make love to his mother Julia. She had always behaved more like a close friend or big sister.
Lennon also tells how he once walked in on Julia while she was making love to "a sleazy little waiter, with the nervous cough and the thinning, margarine-coated hair."
In yet another section he pours scorn on his old Beatles pal Paul McCartney and rubbishes Bob Dylan, Paul Simon and Mick Jagger.
Now experts believe the bombshell tape may be part of a secret audio diary which Lennon recorded 16 months before his murder.
The News of the World passed the tape to voice-analysis expert Dr Phil Harrison of University College London. He confirmed the voice was Lennon's.
The forgotten recording, discovered in a Manchester garage when the owner was moving house, was made in a hotel in September 1979.
It opens with Lennon saying: "Fifth of September 1979, tape one, the ongoing life story of John Winston Ono Lennon..."
And what follows is mainly bizarre - except for Lennon's thoughts about SCOTLAND!
The sound of bagpipes can be heard on the tape. Lennon says: "What's that? Sounds like birds."
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HEN he adds: "Of course, the bagpipes got me right back to Edinburgh, which is one of my favourite dreams.
"And, eh, the Edinburgh Festival and the Tattoo in the castle when all the bands of the world's armies would come and march and play.
"The favourites, I think, usually the Americans - because they swung like st. Apart from the actual Scots - who were really the favourites.
"I always remember feeling very emotional about it. Especially when they did the bit at the end when they put all the lights out and there was just one guy playing the bagpipes lit by a lone spotlight. Och aye!"
Soon Lennon's thoughts turn to Julia, who was knocked down and killed by a car in Liverpool when he was 17. Her marriage to John's dad Alfred broke up when John was a youth. After that he lived with his Aunt Mimi, but still popped round to visit Julia.
On the tape he recalls vividly the day his hand wandered to Julia's breast.
"It was when I was about 14," he says. "I took the day off school-I was always doing that-and hanging out in her house. And we were lying on the bed and I was thinking, 'I wonder if I should do anything else?' And it was a strange moment. Cos I actually had the hots, as they say, for some rather lower-class female who lived on the opposite side of the road.
"But I always think, 'Well, I should have done it'. Presumably she would have allowed it.
"By the way, mother was wearing a black angora, short-sleeved, roundneck sweater. Not too fluffy, maybe it was that other stuff, cashmere. That's it, black cashmere. Soft wool anyway. And I believe that tight dark green/yellow mottled skirt. Hey ho."
Lennon then reminisces about the time he walked in to Julia's bedroom and saw her making love to her common-law husband-a waiter called John Dykins.
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ENNON never liked Dykins and nicknamed him Twitchy. He says: "She was under the bed sheets and I wandered into the room.
"I can't remember exactly how I felt. Shock, I know that. Because I was already probably into it myself. Probably, I wasn't that shocked...sleazy little waiter, with the nervous cough and the thinning, margarine-coated hair." He then talks of his despair at being held ransom by his sexual urges.
"I read somewhere about some guy saying about the sexual fantasies and urges he had all his life," he rambles on.
"I just thought 'st'. Cos I was always waiting for them to lessen. But I suppose it's going to go on forever."
But Lennon reserves his greatest bitterness for his pop and rock contemporaries.
He snipes: "I was listening to the radio and Dylan's new single or album or whatever the hell it is came on.
"The backing was mediocre...the singing was really pathetic and the words were just embarrassing.
"So, here we sit, watching the mighty Dylan and the mighty McCartney and the mighty Jagger slide down the mountain, blood and mud in their nails. That's the way the world is.
"McCartney, Dylan, Jagger, et al-they're all company men, in various disguises.
"Not forgetting the singing dwarf Mr Simon (Paul Simon) . The difference between now and a couple of years back is that, whenever there was a new thing out by any of the aforesaid, I used to feel a sense of panic and competition.
"But now I just feel like...even in the last few months it's changed. I'd send out for their albums or something, just to hear it-there doesn't seem any point now."
The tape was passed to a fan, who now wishes to remain anonymous, by a member of the Beatles' entourage in 1989. He put it in his garage and forgot it until he was moving.
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March 21, 1999 | News of the World (London, England)
